Lovesick [Love Load]
This song is one of my favourites that the Spirit gave me =]
It is my testimony, my personal love story with the Lord, which I hope will become that of others, if they haven't already fallen in love with the Lord =]. It is about how I placed so much value on friendship; all of my time, all of my thoughts, my ALL, and consequently neglecting the Lord and my family. I knew it was an unhealthy addiction for my spirit, because I could never be satisfied; sometimes I would get so damaged when my love and commitment wasn't requited to the level I yearned for in return.
And when I got rejected, I would run back to the Lord, treating Him as my rebound. But I didn't want Him to be my rebound! I wanted Him to be the one I love most. And after a while, I realised that the situation between my friends and me was actually mirrored by my relationship with the Lord; the Lord has really give me His all, yet I choose not to requite Him with my all, instead give it to others who cannot love me the same way. I saw that it was a symmetrical love triangle between me, my friends and the Lord. And this became my "Love Load".
I've struggled with this Love Load since year 7 and realised it in year 9, so I've had it for 6 years and had wanted to be rid of it for 4 years, but each time the Lord set up something for me to draw me back, I would somehow leave Him again. But I thank Him so much that after a deepest outcry from my heart to Him leading up to my Fiji trip this year, He finally granted me my wish; that is, to fall in love with Him =].
A sister Maggie, from Toronto told me that relationships and things of this world may fade away, may topple, but our relationship with the Lord, Abba and Spirit, our relationship with b+s in God's family, and God's work, will NEVER CEASE TO EXIST, will NEVER CRUMBLE, will LAST INTO ETERNITY and that is what is worth our investment in =]. Our investment of time, thoughts and actions.
The true way to love is not to love others with your own all, but to love Him with your all, and then having love-interflow with our infinite God, our infinite source of love overflow our hearts with His love onto others around us. That is, to God first, then love others; to love others with God's love, with God's infinite love, drawing from the source; that is where you will find the strength to love =D; infinite strength!
Hope this song echoes or becomes the outcry from your heart to the Lord =]
It is my testimony, my personal love story with the Lord, which I hope will become that of others, if they haven't already fallen in love with the Lord =]. It is about how I placed so much value on friendship; all of my time, all of my thoughts, my ALL, and consequently neglecting the Lord and my family. I knew it was an unhealthy addiction for my spirit, because I could never be satisfied; sometimes I would get so damaged when my love and commitment wasn't requited to the level I yearned for in return.
And when I got rejected, I would run back to the Lord, treating Him as my rebound. But I didn't want Him to be my rebound! I wanted Him to be the one I love most. And after a while, I realised that the situation between my friends and me was actually mirrored by my relationship with the Lord; the Lord has really give me His all, yet I choose not to requite Him with my all, instead give it to others who cannot love me the same way. I saw that it was a symmetrical love triangle between me, my friends and the Lord. And this became my "Love Load".
I've struggled with this Love Load since year 7 and realised it in year 9, so I've had it for 6 years and had wanted to be rid of it for 4 years, but each time the Lord set up something for me to draw me back, I would somehow leave Him again. But I thank Him so much that after a deepest outcry from my heart to Him leading up to my Fiji trip this year, He finally granted me my wish; that is, to fall in love with Him =].
A sister Maggie, from Toronto told me that relationships and things of this world may fade away, may topple, but our relationship with the Lord, Abba and Spirit, our relationship with b+s in God's family, and God's work, will NEVER CEASE TO EXIST, will NEVER CRUMBLE, will LAST INTO ETERNITY and that is what is worth our investment in =]. Our investment of time, thoughts and actions.
The true way to love is not to love others with your own all, but to love Him with your all, and then having love-interflow with our infinite God, our infinite source of love overflow our hearts with His love onto others around us. That is, to God first, then love others; to love others with God's love, with God's infinite love, drawing from the source; that is where you will find the strength to love =D; infinite strength!
Hope this song echoes or becomes the outcry from your heart to the Lord =]
*This was originally called "Love Load", but since love is no longer a load in my life, I shall call it Lovesick. =]
Lovesick
I had a friend whom I love,
But that seemed to be not enough;
My affections rained on a one-way road.
And I could not let it go,
This love load.
I have a friend whom i trust,
Arms always open, waiting on us.
He's the One who needs me the most, I know,
Still I couldn't let it go,
My love load.
Suddenly, there I saw
A mirror I'd ignored;
A symmetrical love triangle;
I saw myself from His angle.
I was never quite content
With what I had been sent.
But really, what more could I ask for?
He already gave me His all!
His is the love I desire.
His love to me will never retire.
He's the One who I truly need, I know,
Why I could not let it go,
I do not know.
Oh my Lord, here I pray,
To need You everyday,
To return as many as I can
Of Your thoughts that timelessly began.
Make me fall in love with You,
Be the reason for all that I do,
Be the One I breathe for.
To You Lord, I give You my all.
Now You are the One whom I love,
Of You I never can get enough.
My affections, I keep for you alone.
And I'll never let You go,
My love, Lord
You are the One whom I need,
You're the oxygen that I breathe!
You know what, I'm...helplessly sick with love!
Each day, I yearn for Your touch,
I need You this much!
Finally, here we are,
Oh Lord, we've come so [very] far
I don't regret our past,
For unique is our love path.
Now with You to elope
To the clefts, is my only hope.
And as long as we live,
So shall my love to You I give. =]
20090927
http://www.4shared.com/file/138488543/eb058aba/Melody_Tse_-_Love_Load.html
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Lovesick
I had a friend whom I love,
But that seemed to be not enough;
My affections rained on a one-way road.
And I could not let it go,
This love load.
I have a friend whom i trust,
Arms always open, waiting on us.
He's the One who needs me the most, I know,
Still I couldn't let it go,
My love load.
Suddenly, there I saw
A mirror I'd ignored;
A symmetrical love triangle;
I saw myself from His angle.
I was never quite content
With what I had been sent.
But really, what more could I ask for?
He already gave me His all!
His is the love I desire.
His love to me will never retire.
He's the One who I truly need, I know,
Why I could not let it go,
I do not know.
Oh my Lord, here I pray,
To need You everyday,
To return as many as I can
Of Your thoughts that timelessly began.
Make me fall in love with You,
Be the reason for all that I do,
Be the One I breathe for.
To You Lord, I give You my all.
Now You are the One whom I love,
Of You I never can get enough.
My affections, I keep for you alone.
And I'll never let You go,
My love, Lord
You are the One whom I need,
You're the oxygen that I breathe!
You know what, I'm...helplessly sick with love!
Each day, I yearn for Your touch,
I need You this much!
Finally, here we are,
Oh Lord, we've come so [very] far
I don't regret our past,
For unique is our love path.
Now with You to elope
To the clefts, is my only hope.
And as long as we live,
So shall my love to You I give. =]
20090927
http://www.4shared.com/file/138488543/eb058aba/Melody_Tse_-_Love_Load.html
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